Alchemy

Alchemy

So, what to blog today? I’ll start writing and see what comes out. It’s how I deal with writers block, as I believe there is no such thing or at least I believe what Ralph Keyes says in “The Courage To Write”. It’s plain fear. It may be a different fear for some, but it’s fear.

For me, when I don’t want to start hitting the keys at all, it’s the fear that I’m about to write something stupid that I have no business sharing with the rest of the world. If you got it into your head to write me back to say this proves that my fears were accurate, then I’d like to thank you for proving me wrong as it at least exposes you as an ignorant person with no literary sensibilities or knowledge as to what actually goes into writing.

I suppose the next fear is that I’ll say something offensive, like calling some one and ignorant SOB, causing me to self censor myself like I did, because, getting down to the real fear, the cliché of all fears, I fear that I’ll expose myself, like some literary flasher, reveling the writer has no real words, that I’m just a fraud and a pretender and I have not faced up to the fact that all those people of yesteryear were right and I am just a dumb, scared little shit who needs to get out of the way, shut up, and stop bothering people.

This kind of thing just pisses me off these days, makes me fighting mad and the way I fight is by punching one key after another, building word upon word into coherence, thoughts others can identify with and then we can become allies in the great war, fire great salvos against those who tell little kids they’re stupid or don’t matter or nobody cares what the hell they have to say.

We can stand up together and shout, flood the world with our words, proclaim these kids matter, they’re important, they can survive and flourish. We are proof and witnesses that their pain can be summoned and crafted and turned into turned to something else.

So all you naysayers out there keep it up. You may destroy some of us with your belittling comments about our worth, but some of us survive. Some of us are alchemist. We take the lead weight of your words of destruction and write them into gold.